Sometimes I feel I get lost in my own life. I have been so busy that I haven't really given myself a chance to grieve over what is lost. Every once in awhile I take a breath and a small wave of sorrow for what was hits me. As quickly as it hits me I push it away.

A few months ago I asked why I was doing what I am doing. I know why. I have a dream of what I want out of life. I have faith that our future will be as good as I dream it will be. I feel like I have gained a sense of strength and autonomy that I have never had. At the end of this road I will be a better wife and mother and have so much more to offer in general. So, I thank God for unexpected turns in the road and I put my faith in him to guide me down the right paths.

Lost Photos

I just found pictures of Jack when he was first born and when he was back in the hospital at 6 days old. I have been so sad because I thought we had never downloaded them. Yah!!!

Happy 9th Birthday Max

I have a never ending list of things that I love and admire about Max, but here is my top 10.

1. He is such a good big brother. His brothers wait all day long to play with him.
2. He is super creative. He has a never ending imagination.
3. He is a great swimmer, he swims 3-5 times a week for 1 1/2 hours.
4. He loves music, he is into the Police at the moment.
5. He makes friends easily and gets along with almost anyone.
6. He is really smart and gets really good marks in school.
7. He is a deep thinker, asks questions about life and religion that knock me off my feet.
8. He is adventurous, he likes to travel, and eat really great food (like sushi)
9. He is sweet. One night I came home from work at 5am to find Max sleeping in my bed. I climbed into bed and he woke up just long enough to kiss me on the cheek and say. "I love you mom"
10. He's handsome and really tall. I know more than one young lady with a crush on him :)

Max, I love you. Happy birthday!